P2 R1 D32 - VLCD30

Morning Report

I'm going down, I'm going down, cause hhcg's around baby, my whole world's up-side dooooown.... In a good way :0)

A little song and dance this morning. I'm down a pound. I have 3 more days to add to my numbers. I'd be really thrilled if I can have a 5 pounds loss this week. It might be a bit ambitious but hey, who knows.

I think I figured out why the baked apple tasted bad, I put too much nutmeg on it... I put less yesterday, and I'm going to put some on half and leave some off the other half and see how that goes.

What I plan to eat:

tea

baked apple

chicken

lettuce

steak

grilled onions

hotsauce

Evening Report

Had fun for Halloween! Danced, drank, ate a Denny's t-bone steak with grilled onions and protocol friendly hot sauce after the Halloween party last night. All in all it was a cool night.

P2 R1 D31 - VLCD29

Morning Report

I'm up early and weighed for the day. Down .4 and happy for the loss, wish it was more but...

The fish is thawing and is my choice for lunch today. Yesterday I didn't have lunch till dinner and I didn't have dinner at all. It was a long day.

18 more days after today. Tomorrow is Halloween and you know what that means... CANDY! I'm going to begin mentally preparing myself today. No candy, no problem!

What I plan to eat:

tea

apple

fish

asparagus

orange

chicken - KFC

wine

Evening Report

Interesting turn of events. The little people will be with their dad tonight, which means I get to to have an adult Halloween and don't have to worry about candy!!! YIPEE. I have been wanting for a while to be able to go out for Halloween and now I get to.

Didn't get to exercise today but I did stay on plan. I have had fast food food like 3 nights in a row and successfully maneuvered the waters. I stuck to chicken :) Last night I had a chicken breast sandwich from KFC, hold everything. I just ate the breast, I didn't cheat at all, not even the tiniest nibble of the bun. I am serious about getting to 163.

Now all I have to do is make it past granny one more time. Baked apple are my friend!

P2 R1 D30 - VLCD28

Morning Report

Yippee, I lost some more. Now just 5 more pounds this week to get back to my average per week loss. No pressure.

I was looking at my body and others before and after pictures and I've come to the conclusion I need to get the lead out on exercising!!! The weight is going to come off but my body is not going to get toned and tight on it's own. C'mon girl you can do it! Little pep talk for myself.

3 more pounds before my interim goal :D hopefully in 3-5 days. No smooth move to push things along either. I'll just bear down through the day and try to encourage things LMAO! On second thought I don't want hemorrhoids soooo nevermind.

What I plan to eat:

tea

apple

chicken - Wendy's

lettuce - Wendy's

wine :0)

Evening Report

I actually got in some exercise today. :0) 1 hr walk with a little bit of jogging and some really steep stairs... I always enjoy running and jogging. I am happy to report while I am still experiencing some hunger it is WAY better than it was before. I think taking the hhcg by itself instead of with the other stuff was a good modification for me.

I bought a cute skirt last night in a size smaller that usual and it was a tad big on me but the medium was tight, so I'm kinda in the middle. It was a really nice experience!

I'm hoping tomorrow brings 176, I wouldn't protest if it was 175.

Yes, wine is on the menu tonight. If I gain or have no loss tomorrow I'll chuck it again but I have actually already gone a a few days and even a week with no wine soooo, it's back! :0)

P2 R1 D29 - VLCD27

Morning Report

No loss after my steak day, oh well. Answers the question for me about apple day and steak day happening a day apart. The scale did this little fluctuation thing this morning, 179, 178.6, 178.4... Okay, not sure what that's about but I'm going to go with 179 because I saw that number more than once and the others showed up only once.

This morning I've already started settling back into my protocol with a baked apple. For some reason it wasn't as delicious as the first one I made. Back to the drawing board. What's worse is I made it for my children too for breakfast and they were like, YUCK!!!

I'm sippin coffee now, I had breakfast, prepared lunch, and ready to get the day going...

What I plan to eat:

coffee

baked apple

shrimp

asparagus

apple

chicken - Mc D's

2 slices of tomato - Mc D's

Evening Report

Another successful day, even with the Mc D's chicken breast. Never the best choice but I think it's legal with a little pat down. That's just me though.

I had tons of water today. Serious bathroom marathon going on. Thank goodness the ladies room is not too far from my desk! I'm really hoping things will become steady again. I enjoyed my daily losses with occasional no losses. Come back to me please!

I picked up some shrimp, chicken and fish tonight. I need to get strawberries and veggies tomorrow, I'm all out. I have apples but no veggies.

Haven't had any wine for a few days but it will be back on the menu. It didn't take away from my losses when I was drinking because I accounted for the calories, so I believe it's cool. I took it off the menu because Jen challenged me :0) I figured she was right, remove all the non necessities till I can get back on track. I suppose after I establish several good days, maybe a week of consistent losing again I'll reintroduce my nighttime glass of wine :0) (Update 10/29/09: the wine comes back tonight!)

Well of to get some wine, I mean some sleep... hehehe Just kidding Jen

P2 R1 D28 - VLCD26

Morning Report

Down 1.6 this morning, HOORAY!

Thank you, ladies and gentleman! And for my next trick... Complete my exam with a B. Got a nap from 5-something AM till 7-ish AM. Been studying for an exam. Lots more studying to do before the exam.

Today is supposed to be a steak day. It'll be interesting to see if I can lose with a steak day and an apple day a day apart.

What I plan to eat:

water

tea

Steak Day

200g steak

1 apple

Evening Report

Had my steak and apple tonight.

My legs are still sore from my walk the other day. I'm looking forward to getting another walk/jog in very soon!

This week of VLCD seems it may bring about my interm goal of 174. I'm feeling pretty centered with my plan right now. I took a suggestion, and my plan is to take my hhcg by itself, instead of with the combo. It's only been a day but it seems positive.

Back to a full menu of protocol tomorrow. Added an additional week for TOM and success sake, therefore I have 3 weeks remaining.

2 links I want to remember:

Great Low Carb Blogs

Oopsie Roll

P2 R1 D27 - VLCD25

Morning Report

Down 1 lb this morning after my apple day. Even though it is the same 1 lb I re-gained and lost again, I suppose a 1 lb loss is cool after an apple day. Now I'm starting from where I left off and I'm going to just get back to the business of losing. I'm still planning to do the steak day tomorrow. Today I'm going to finish the apple day, which is up to lunch and have a protocol dinner.

My weight loss has been all bad since my mess up on D20-VLCD18, I regret detouring. It has taken way more than 3 days to get back on track and it wasn't worth it. I side tracked myself on something that was working. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, just reflecting on my decision making.

Thank you to the ladies that are being supportive and especially for holding me accountable, as I hold myself accountable. I have always appreciated people that have the balls and the balls in the form of ovaries :0) to say, yes you messed up, don't do it again, and I'm here for you to cheer you on through this. Thanks :0)

Today, I made good on a D23-VLCD21 goal I set: "My goal today is to get in a walk and enjoy the sunshine..." better late than never right ;0) It was nice to get out in the sun and walk. I did a couple of short jogs along the way too. An hour walk in total.

I had hot protein and cold caffeine for lunch. Since it's been a while since I had caffeine it gave me a burst of energy and nerves and I had to do something with it so I went for a walk.

Walks always make me feel optomistic about life. I need more of them...

What I plan to eat:

2 more apples to finish my apple day

chicken

coffee

Evening Report

Nothing to report. The day was interesting with apple day, coffee, and walking. All that's left is for the scale let me know how it feels about what I've been up to...

P2 R1 D26 - VLCD24

Morning Report

Woke up this morning with a 1 lb gain. Alrighty then. Not much to say after that. Apple Day today, Steak Day tomorrow, and strict protocol the rest of the week haven taken Jen up on her challenge.

Another day on set :0)

What I plan to eat:

Apple Day

Evening Report

I have to admit, I am frustrated. I did good with my apple day. Despite the cake (which smelled soooooo good), the spaghetti and bread (which smelled equally delicious), and all the other food they had on the craft table, I held my ground.

I know I would not have made it if I didn't have an apple to bite into and whimper... Oh man, that food looked so good. At other times I was cool because I was thinking how much I really want this. I really want to see 163, 174 first and at the end of this round 163! Even if I have go a little longer. I really want this and I am done playing!

No matter the scale says tomorrow I am going to have a reasonable dinner tomorrow night after I wrap up my apple day and then following day I am going to have a steak day.

This is no time for me to waiver and fall back into old behavior like every other time, as recorded by my journal. I know the only way I will make it through this is to put my head down, read the Anderson Method, and stick to the plan until something happens period!

I am so grateful to have shed 17-19 pounds in less than a month! I am looking forward to losing more when my body and I get it together. I trust the process of life.

P2 R1 D25 - VLCD23

Morning Report

I will probably do an apple day tomorrow if the scale doesn't move by then. I know it hasn't been 4-6 days for me with this plateau, but waiting that amount of time to get back on track would drive me crazy . I have been losing just about a pound a day up till now and I would like to kick things back into gear.

In being open, honest, and accountable I am still asking how much of this is me. I have been drinking lots more wine than my calories allow lately, and I have not been eating my meals like I am supposed to. Yesterday, I had an a few strawberries; I never finished my morning allotment of strawberries, I had cabbage for lunch and the rest of the day, nada, except of course wine.

Now I'm not saying the wine is going anywhere I'm just saying it shouldn't be a freakin' meal! And I definitely shouldn't be drinkin all my calories. Okay, there I said it. I had a good talking to with myself... Hope it works :)

If after today, which I KNOW is going to be a day I get my azz into gear, I am still at 180.2 I will do an apple day.

I had two people notice my weight loss today. It was a good feeling! Gotta keep it going though, can't let the train get stuck at 180.2! I'm out to CURE the obesity in my life, me and good ole Dr. Simeon... and a few of my most wonderful lady friends!

It's super early here on the West Coast, I'm posting earlier than usual. Im going to get some water (need to kill the hunger pains, I didn't eat dinner last night ) and go back to bed... I have a long day later today.

What I plan to eat:

strawberries

cabbage

apple

chicken thigh

Evening Report

It was the longest day EVER. I took hundreds of pictures and at the end of the night, the little people and I ended up being extras in the movie! Pretty cool.

They were SO GOOD, even I was surprised. I did try to go prepared. Food and some cartoon downloads from itunes and they were good!

I did a good job of packing food for myself but not a great job. I started out on a bad foot since I was so hungry so soon in the morning from not having dinner. I stayed on plan though... mostly; I had a thigh instead of a breast that was what they had and I needed to eat or fail altogether from being hungry. No excuses, just reality showed up. Not being fully prepared means putting myself at risk.

Still working to get fully back on track. I look forward to getting back to losing. I especially want to see it go away in my waist. One of the amazing hcg weightloss ladies did hula hoop while watching television or something like that, I think I might try that. We'll see.

I'm am grateful for today, lots of wonderful experiences, no big cheats or huge goof ups, my children were dynamo, and my reflection was kind Thank you Lord!

Super duper prayers the scale will be kind tomorrow. Help me break through Lord! And bless those that have real problems. I am grateful. Amen.

P2 R1 D24 - VLCD22

Morning Report

No gain, no loss this morning. So close yet so far away from the 170s... It's soooo weird how the scale comes right back to the same number. I drank a few glasses of wine last night; couple hundred calories I didn't need but definitely wanted. I'm not sure why I'm in self sabatoge mode but okay. We'll deal with it...

What I plan to eat:

2 strawberries

cabbage

apple

crab meat

orange

shrimp

cabbage

Evening Report

I was doing waaaay too much today! Hardly ate anything and didn't get in enough water. Hmm, this must not continue...

P2 R1 D23 - VLCD21

Morning Report

Down 1 lb today, looks like I'm headed in the right direction again. Cool. 170's I'm coming for you! Friday maybe?!?!?

On the agenda is water, water, and more water, eating protocol only food, and dosing on time. I still am not meeting my second goal but 2 out of 3 will work for now. I gotta figure out a way to at least get a good walk in during the day, but it's hard to leave my desk once I get there.

My goal today is to get in a walk and enjoy the sunshine...

For anyone wondering about hhcg (homeopathic hcg) here is an interesting article:

"Does Homeopathic HCG Work"

What I plan to eat:

apple

shrimp

cucumber

cabbage

blackened catfish

cabbage

orange

wine

Evening Report

Had a wonderful run down of my day which included details of protocol friendly blackened catfish from Whole Foods and some more stuff but blogger had issues and the post was lost :( Long and short is I had two full meals, good amount of water, and all my doses (one late dose - Woopsie), and lots of wine.

No walk, unless you count from home to car to picking up kids...

Still looking for 170s...

P2 R1 D22 - VLCD20

Morning Report

The scale is up today, got some ideas why, maybe the balsamic vinegar on my lettuce yesterday or the chicken breast I had; it tasted a little sweet, not sure what was in it. I ate at Fresh Choice yesterday and only had chicken and lettuce but if you don't know what they put in it then you're screwed... Lesson learned. Nothing I can really do about it so I'm going to move on...

I am also back to poor BMs. No more smooth move tea. It was short term gratification and not a long term solution so I need to find something that works for me. I'll be searching the boards for that bit of info soon.

Took my doses this morning on time, drinking my tea this morning, I have my meal planned for lunch, prepared to drink lots of water today, and I have my goal dress to help keep me focused.

I didn't get the cabbage made last night but I'm thinking tonight might be the night. I bought it, now all I have to do is cook it, I got 2 heads this time. Two heads are better than 1 right! :)

Today as I move past week 3 into week 4 of this protocol I will be thinking about what Corrine said about "Newbie Frustration." I think it is appropriate for this point of my hhcg journey.

Words of wisdom from, Corrine, of Phit-N-Phat:

Newbie Frustration
29 August 07 09:32 PM | Corinne

I wrote this in response to a client having a tough time making it past three weeks of their new diet and fitness program. I hope this helps all of you see that you are normal and give you a roadmap for your first month.

It's common in week three of anything we do we hit a wall. Weight loss, a new hobby, a new job all take about three weeks for the newness to wear off. It's normal!

In the beginning of your fitness and fat loss journey everything is shiny and new. You are excited and you have new tools and a renewed focus. Week two, you are going strong and proud of your success and typically "reward" yourself with a splurge or a day off from exercise. You haven't even formed the habit of your new lifestyle, but you are flying high! Week three, you feel the workouts, the calorie restriction, and you don't see 20lbs falling off your body so you get discouraged. TOM might even be settling in for a quick visit. You suddenly realize this is going to be a long process, but you feel like you are working hard for what? Four pounds? You probably also have had a chance for your family and friends to get tired of your efforts and then they start pulling at you. Here comes that little nag in your head, "Hey, you ate that one meal and it didn't hurt, do it again."

You put all that together and week three turns into backsliding into your old, comfy ways. The key is stay accountable and focused. This is where your Forum journaling and your PNP buddies come in handy. It takes loads of accountability and honest feedback from other girls in the trenches to form the habits needed to push forward with a new lifestyle.

Week four...the clouds part and the angels sing. It's time for your four week measuring day! When you make it one month and work your plan, you will be rewarded with inches lost. That is your prize. Make it to this point and the whole lifestyle just gets easier.

What I plan to eat:

tea

apple

shrimp

asparagus

orange

wine

shrimp

cabbage

Evening Report

By the Grace of God I passed my exam. Yesss! Didn't get my evening meal in but I did have some wine :0) I know... Haven't cooked the cabbage yet either, darnit! I had class last night and when I got home I was pooped. The Anderson Method has had some really neat stuff to say and I'm really enjoying the book and the growing/learning experience. Really looking forward to the 170s; can't wait till my body goes through the correcting process. But I guess I will have to wait.

P2 R1 D21 - VLCD19

Morning Report

I swear the worst sabotage, is self sabotage, but I digress. Got up this morning and I did have a loss. Of course I know it would have probably been a nice sized one had I NOT... okay I said I wasn't going to go there. I had a loss of .6, which surprised me. When I think the scale is messing with my head, I put the bottled water on the scale and weigh it (it's 8.4 pounds) and then weigh myself again. It wasn't wrong but again it makes me think I probably would have lost more. :( 6 lbs for this week/ 18.6 thus far. I think by Thursday I should be in the 170s. I'm being conservative because I am drinking lots of water and don't want to get overly excited. I hear it takes 3 days to correct mess-ups...

I am feeling stronger about things today; prayer and some quiet time in the form of jury duty. On my way to jury duty I was like, AARRG, but when I got there the room was quiet, no one asked me to do anything, no one told me they were hungry or needed a report completed. Holy cow it was the bast day I've had in a while. Who'd of thunk it?!? A little time at jury duty allowed me to go through some work email (working offline) and was just about to start cleaning out my purse when they changed it up. I was disappointed it was time to move on, LOL. Strange but true, today I enjoyed jury duty.

Anyway how does that relate to food, well it gave me some quiet time to catch my breath and clear my head just a little, Thank you Lord. Thanks for all your prayers too, they are felt. That's probably why jury duty was so nice, because y'all helped pray me into the quiet of the storm.

What I plan to eat today:

apple

chicken

lettuce

orange

shrinp

cabbage (I think - still have to go buy some)

Evening Report

Bought my goal dress today, took a picture in it. It was tight with bulges everywhere. If I was a women that didn't care about bulging and cellulite I actually would look alright in it right now BUT I'm kinda vain that way that I like clean lines and nice looking legs!

Ok, so I was sitting with my 11 year old son, commenting that I really like the dress-mini skirt (my goal dress) I bought today and I want to look d*mn hot in it! He reached over grabbed the bottle of water and handed it to me! Kids ... I'm drinking my water right now. LOL

Been reading Phit-N-Phats blogs today and um yes I am going to figure this healthy eating and exercise lifestyle out! I have to, I want arms like hers!!!!

I had a good day today. Headed to eat and apple and have more water. Didn't get all my meals in today but I did the water thing and I got most of them in :) I did buy some cabbage so maybe I'll have dinner late night since I'll be up studying most of tonight; I have an exam tomorrow.

P2 R1 D20 - VLCD18

Morning Report

Got on the scale twice this morning to make sure I wasn't trippin and yep I have a +.2. Since I know I haven't been drinking enough water or being mindful of my meals, Im not surprised. I took it on the chin this morning and said correct and continue. I have some apples with nutmeg and cinnamon in the oven right now, I'm drinking water, and I'll be getting lunch packed in a minute. In my head I'm plotting on how to lose another pound by tomorrow so I can continue at 6 pounds a week... hehehe If it happens great if not that's okay to, I think I need to concentrate on getting things back into a routine. I don't like routines but I suppose I will have to start finding some joy in them if I want success! That's real.

The element I've been struggling the most with is the emotional side. It has nothing to do with taking hhcg. Parent, student, employee, citizen (I've been summoned for jury duty :p ), some days I need a break and there isn't one right now, so I'm weathering the emotions and stress. Pray for me please.

What I plan to eat:

tea

apple

spinach

shrimp

orange

messed up my plan with:

oatmeal

cracker jacks

A 837 calorie day...

Evening Report

A bowl of oatmeal bit my ankle this evening, wrestled me to the ground and jumped down my throat, along with a few handfuls of cracker jacks. In other words, I lost the battle today.

Sad day in my 40 day journey but I felt it coming, I tried to journal it away and put my mind on other things but I didn't make it through today successfully. Blah blah blah.

I'll face the scale tomorrow and deal with the feelings later right now I got to get back to my son's school project. Just wanted to update my blog so that y'all aren't overly excited about tomorrow's weigh in...

I think the next 20 days should be better. I usually rebound pretty well after stupid moves like this. I just hate when they happen because I feel like I should be doing better. :(

I think I'll take a bath later and try and pull some of the oatmeal impurities out my body... taheed :)

P2 R1 D19 - VLCD17

Morning Report

Today I need to get more food. I'm out of apples and would love to have some cabbage. The page I read in The Anderson Method was on point. I needed the message.

I updated my weight loss tracker and guess what I found out?!?!? I'm halfway to my goal. I am also almost halfway through my round. Cool! Looking forward to reaching my goal. Visualizing my success ;0)

What I plan to eat:

orange

chicken

tomato slice

coffee

2 tbsp creamer

Evening Report

I grossly over estimated my calories with my meal yesterday. I had one chicken breast cut it in half and then ate half for lunch and half for dinner, right, right. Today I did the same thing but I wanted to know exactly how many calories each half was. I weighed the half piece of breast on my food scale and it was 52 grams - cooked. Then I plugged it into fitday and it said 83 calories. Well alrighty then!

Goes to show a person should never guess on calories. The calories were lower than I thought but they could of easily been the other way! I really want to have good habits about my eating choices so I will try to be more on it.

Only 21 days remaining. My goal is firm in my head and is the reason why I keep saying I need to make sure I'm tight on my game plan. 21 days... I say 21 because day 40 has to count as my LDW (last dose weight) and Day 22 and 23 along with the 3 weeks after that I need to stay within 2 pounds of my LDW.

For now 174 is my mini goal and 163 is my round 1 goal.

Most Inspiring Before and After I've Seen:

http://sisterskinny.blogspot.com/search/label/*%20Before%20and%20After

Scroll down to the photos of Phit-N-Phat!!!!

She also has a website:

http://phit-n-phat.com/Default.aspx

Oh yes I WILL be working out, lifting weights PERIOD! My bat wings and baby belly are outta here!!!!

Oh yes BTW, I'm currently letting myself down on my #2 goal for my HHCG Journey :(

P2 R1 D18 - VLCD16

Morning Report

It's the weekend. YIPEE! Not much to report. I am still struggling to get on my eating and water game but I am continuing to work on it so I think that's most important. Down 1 lb today :)

Last night I was reading about regular positive body image visualization. I think I'll work on this and apply it to other areas of my life too like finances, my kids, etc. When I wake up in the morning and before I go to bed I do try to think of something positive that I want to happen. My plan is to work on having sharper visions and doing it through the day.

What I plan to eat:

strawberries

chicken

spinach

slice of tomato

peach diet snapple

Evening Report

My chicken and tomato was from McDonalds. I did my best to pat off the oil but I may have added the slightest bit of ranch to it :D I cut it in half and had it for lunch and dinner. Not the best meal choice but hey I made it through another day without Wendy's. I read the label on the diet snapple and it seemed okay, but don't quote me on that not sure it's safe.

P2 R1 D17 - VLCD15

Morning Report

The smooth move did it's job and I'm feeling better. Not much on the menu. I am taking a much needed mental break today. *As expected, I'm down a little more than I would have been without the smooth move but I did do a scale check before elimination and I was down .6. My overall loss is 1.2 but .6 of that was change per the hhcg regimen is how I am calculating it. Then again there wasn't that much elimination and TOM is leaving, so I don't know. I am still going to count the full 1.2 but with a star next to it like how they do with players that took steriods and therefore their performance scores are if-fy. Either way I'm glad to not have a full gut and bulging stomach. :P I'm pretty much on point with my doses today, and drinking water. Gotta get my meals back up to snuff...

What I plan to eat:

apple

chicken

strawberries

wine

Evening Report

Didn't eat this evening, my smooth move was working overtime in my system. After my apple went right through me I was like I'm good on food today. Had about a liter of water and some wine for dinner.

P2 R1 D16 - VLCD14

Morning Report

Alrighty then, no food for dinner but I will try to be more on it today along with water. Down .6 on the scale. I'm going through it on the family side so not much to say today, except pray for us. Thanks!

What I plan to eat:

tea

strawberries

chicken

spinach

apple

asparagus

chicken

smooth move tea

Evening Report

Only one meal again today and some wine to make up the difference in calories. :0) I did have my water though. I am drinking some smooth move tea tonight so my weight loss numbers will be a little deceiving due to elimination.

I'm feeling slimmer lately and a few items of clothes are fitting less tight but for some reason I don't really see it a lot when I look in the mirror. Strange but true.

P2 R1 D15 - VLCD13

Morning Report

Made it to today, Thank you Lord. Yesterday was rough. I need to drink more water today, that's my goal. I'm grateful for the loss this morning. At around 1am I weighed and cooked the chicken, finally. Yesterday I picked up a few apples and strawberries.

Lastly, I forgot to take my last dose of hhcg combo plus last night. I didn't worry about it too much since I'm not really suppose to take the hhcg while TOM is here. I just need to make sure I don't keep forgetting when TOM is over.

I plugged my numbers into Fitday and I think the calories are a bit high for what I think I ate BUT that's what it says so I have to claim 'em.

What I plan to eat:

tea

apple

chicken

spinach

shrimp

asparagus

strawberries

WATER :0)

Wine

Evening Report

Another loooooong day. I had my water today but fell short on eating my meals. I was hungry earlier and ended up having gum twice today but this evening I'm too distracted with some issues to eat. Not that I mentioned food my stomach is like, huh, someone say eat...

I picked up some smooth move the other evening but haven't had any. My BMs have been every couple of days and I decided to continue to let things be until I get really annoyed.

Think I'll take my last dose of hhcg and call it an episode.

P2 R1 D14 - VLCD12

Morning Report

Down .2 and wrapping up the week with 6.2 lost. Food wise things will look like yesterday. TOM and stress have got the best of me this morning and I'm feeling blah. It's raining here in the Bay Area. I really want to stay home, look at the rain through the window, and sleep. Wishful thinking. I'll be working to refocus my energy this morning to improve my day. Pray for me y'all.

What I plan to eat:

tea

orange

hamburger

cucumber

apple

wine

Evening Report

I may have snuck in a tbsp of tartar sauce with my piece of hamburger and had a few sips of wine. But since I'm in total denial and not coping to any of it I think I'm good. LMAO Yeah right. I'm calling it a night early cause today has been challenging. Crossing my fingers the scale is kind tomorrow.

P2 R1 D13 - VLCD11

Morning Report

Seriously running out of food and motivation to plan meals everyday... BUT the show must go on. I'm on day 2 of TOM and not feeling it at all. I've decided to continue my protocol instead of stopping like Dr. Simeon said, partly out of curiosity and the other part out of fear of that hunger coming back. I'm cool on feeling hungry like that!

What I plan to eat:

orange

shrimp x2

hamburger

cucumber x2

apple

wine

Evening Report

Tough day today. I packed some grilled hamburger for lunch that I came home with from the Saturday evening birthday party. I accidently left it in the car so I didn't get a chance to eat until on my way home at 5:30pm. Talk about hungry. I had tea which worked pretty good for a while then I had to resort to gum.

I wasn't sure of the fat content so I only ate half of the half of piece I brought with me. I plan to have the other half for dinner. I had the cucumbers and an orange and didn't get to the store for the apple or have the energy to prepare the shrimp so I am working with what I have.

I claimed 150 grams on my fitday but I'm not sure I ate that much; just in case I claimed it anyway.

Looking to get back into the groove of my meals. Grocery shopping should help but I need to find/make the time to make that happen.

It's been a long day! I'm glad I was able to make it through another day. Thank you Lord.

P2 R1 D12 - VLCD10

Morning Report

Yesterday was interesting... I shared all the food I had with the kids and a friend and end up not having enough to eat, which caused me to eat out. In all the night ended with me eating bbq-ed chicken breat (my best guess at 3 oz's of it), 15 fried shrimp (no batter), and trying to peel the batter of of 3 very small pieces of fish with hot sauce. I was strong and didn't eat the french fries or banana pudding that I was offered TWICE at two different times in my day! OMGoodness that was a test of my will!

I really need to go grocery shopping. I'm out of apples and I for sure need more cabbage, not to mention a few other things.

My weight is down, but I think I'm dehydrated because I haven't had 2 liters of water for the last 2 days. I have had some but not 2 liters worth. We'll see if it affect my weight when I drink more. I'll try to do better today.

There's lot's more to share but I have to get my day started so I'll come back and write more later.

What I plan to eat:

orange

strawberries

chicken breast

cucumbers

beef

spinach

wine

Evening Report

Had the rest of a liter of water I was working on from earlier. I was so tired from my weekend of working and playing that I pretty much fell asleep as soon as I got home yesterday evening. I had chicken yesterday. I took 1 breast cut it in half, cut up half a cucumber and divided that in half; that was my lunch and dinner on the go yesterday along with my strawberries and orange.

Yesterday showed me that if you're prepared, you can make it through a hectic day just fine. We were at no less that 5 locations for the video shoot and it was go, go, go all day but I did it with no cheats :0)

P2 R1 D11 - VLCD9

Morning Report

Went out last night, drank wine, used face make-up, lip gloss, vaseline, didn't cheat as far as food, danced, and had a great time.

Today is going to be filled with video shoots and photography. I don't have anything prepared except cabbage but I'm going to work wit it.

What I plan to eat

orange

cabbage

???

Evening Report

Too tired for an evening report...

P2 R1 D10 - VLCD8

Morning Report

Made it to the 180's today, pretty darn cool. Tonight is suppose to be the night I do a few things I haven't been doing lately; drink, wear make-up, among other things. I will however still be on my eating plan. I'm hoping my night out won't make me stall too much. I think I will be good.

I didn't do the smooth move because I did have a few small BMs. I do prefer the natural approach to that function, so I'm holding off till I feel it more necessary. It's kind of tempting though because I know I would see a loss on the scale but I'm holding off for now.

What I plan to eat:

apple

shrimp

cabbage

wine

Evening Report

Sorry no evening edition. Was getting ready to go out :0)

P2 R1 D9 - VLCD7

Morning Report

Didn't have the orange last night; more tea and water but that was it. Got hungry as I was falling asleep and decided it wasn't enough to get up and respond to so I went to sleep.

Down 0.6 this morning, I'll take it.

What I plan to eat:

apple

fish

spinach

asparagus

beef

tomato

shrimp

cabbage

strawberries

Evening Report

I changed up my meals this evening. I just noticed I have a cabbage head sitting in the fridge wilting so I figured I'd substitute that for the tomatoes. I think tomatoes are more of a fruit than a vegetable so I wouldn't want it to cause a stall. Plus I'm pretty bored with my menu. I don't like cooking; I try to stick with what I know how to cook quick but that's getting old. I haven't actually made dinner yet. I know I need to eat today. I don't want a deficit in calories to make me stall either. I just have work to do and don't feel like cooking :) LOL but I am...

Later PM: Made the cabbage and added 5 shrimp, Yummmm! I really like cabbage. I thought I was going to not like it as much because I wasn't making it with bacon, Wrong, It's still good. My calories are at 367 today. More than before but still less than 500. I'm not going to trip on it though.

Till tomorrow

P2 R1 D8 - VLCD6

Morning Report

I'm glad the no loss wasn't the chai tea! I had it yesterday and I still had a loss. Cool! Not much to say. Still seeing what works for dose and food so that I'm not experiencing so much hunger. The regimen and menu plan has kept it to a minimum for the most part. I'm having two servings of veggies at lunch and dinner but last night I passed on my veggies for dinner in hopes the scale would move. Not sure if that's what did the trick but hey I am still figuring this thing out. One last thing, and it's kind of TMI but I haven't had a good BM. I don't like the feeling; can't wait to go.

What I plan to eat:

apple

shrimp

cucumbers

asparagus

fish or chicken or beef

orange

Evening Report

A couple of things to share and report. First I had a REEEEALLY long day so I didn't even get a chance to eat my lunch, therefore I had it for dinner, which means I didn't have a considerable amount of my calories. My calories will either be 170, or 232 if I eat an orange. I still have some work to do on the computer for work so we'll see.

One of my newest strategies for not being hungry is soup. Yesterday I put extra water in my beef and I spinach dish when I was cooking it so I could drink the broth and possibly stay full longer. Today I did the same and it is a good fit. As London would say, "Yay, me!"

My goal will be to make lunch a soup dish and dinner a whatever dinner is going to be dish. Here's something else that's interesting... Ms. Doesn't like to cook is cooking. I am figuring out ways to make the dish without having to stand over the stove. I'll tell you my secret, lots of baking! Now I just have to get good at making it taste really good. I'm seasoning it but I think I need to put a little more love and effort into it. I'm going to look through the Simeon Recipe thread and see what I can see.

Oh, I still have a liter of water to drink tonight so I kind of doubt it on the orange situation but who knows.

I'm hoping for a very productive BM by thursday night/ Friday morning. Matter of fact if I don't have one by tomorrow night I'm headed for the Smooth Move. I can't stand being backed up. It makes me feel gross and bloated. Forget being satiated.

I want some wine too! Darnit. Friday I'm drinking and that's that! I'm too motivated with seeing the scale drop to think about stopping my flow right now. :0) But Friday I'm going to have some. So there. Okay, okay, I won't whine about my wine stalling me Saturday when I post. I am devising a plan to dance some of the calories off that night anyway hehehe. I'll tell you all about it Saturday morning, maybe Saturday afternoon if I do get a chance to go out.

Okay that's it. Later.

P2 R1 D7 - VLCD5

Morning Report

No loss this morning. I know it is possibly my body's adjusting, but just in case it's not the adjusting thing, I will pay close attention to my food and what I'm adding to my food today.

I know TOM is lurking and my BM was very small compared to previous days so there seems to be a few factors to consider for the no move in the scale. It's interesting how it is exactly the same number as yesterday.

Also I did get my 2 liters of water in yesterday. The joy of running to the bathroom.

This is my new regimen:

7:30AM hhcg 15 drops, combo+B (PPH, Metabolic1, vitamin B)

10AM adreno

12:30PM hhcg 15 drops, Only

5:30PM hhcg 15 drops, combo (PPH, Metabolic1)

8PM adreno

10:30PM hhcg 15 drops, combo+B (PPH, Metabolic1, vitamin B)

I plugged the times into my cell phone calendar so it will remind me ;0)

Setting my self up for success.

The post I got the new regimen from was as follows:

"I am in my first round of HHCG drops, and without looking at the calendar I'm close to being around day 23 or so. I am down 23 pounds and only had hunger for the first couple of days. I work really hard shifts of 12 hour days for two weeks and then 12 hour nights for two weeks so my doctor put me on 4 doses per day of 15-20 drops per dose. She said my akward sleeping patterns was throwing me off and that extra dose has really helped with hunger and weight loss.She originally had me set for a 41 day cycle saying that was as long as I could go without running the risk of stalling due to body creating a tolerance to it. I think I am going to be so close to where I want to be at the end of the 41 days I am going to try to stretch it out til I hit my weight."

What I plan to eat:

tea

apple

beef

spinach

strawberries

fish

asparagus

Evening Report

For dinner I had fish and strawberries. I purposely decreased my calories today because I want to be on the right side of losing weight. The calories still added up to 446, so it wasn't that much of a decrease. I got my 2 liters of water in today.

The regimen went good. I am still quite tempted by foods that are not only the list so for now I am doing what I can to avoid temptation. I had some hunger today but I suppose it was less than the beginning. I really want it to be non-existent; I'm hopeful.

I have a headache tonight, it's because of stress at work and 2 exams tomorrow for school. Pray for me...

P2 R1 D6 - VLCD4

Morning Report

Well yesterday was my first day with no cheats or overeats. Yipee! Down a couple pounds this morning, good news also.

This morning I have a headache but I think it's due to stress and lack of sleep; month end reporting. I plan on taking some motrin. I had half my apple this morning and I am going to save the other half until I start feeling hungry again.

In the interim I am going to drink tea and see if I can get into a rhythm with this eating/hunger thing so I can have a successful 40 days that is not unpleasant.

I reached out on the yahoo groups and they suggested miracle noodle. I think I'll hold off for now. I really don't want to wimp out so early in the program. I am going to work at becoming better friends with my body and see what I can come up with.

Oh yes, and another strategy I've been meaning to share from the Anderson Method is when he talks about the people that only eat at "meals." They turn down food they're offered by saying, "No thank you I am going to be having lunch or dinner soon." (whichever meal is appropriate). I like that strategy. It's polite and keeps things in perspective of why you are turning the person down and has nothing to do with saying, "I'm on a diet." :0)

What I plan to eat:

tea

apple

shrimp

asparagus

lettuce

white chicken breast

my salad dressing (maybe I'll add juice from my orange this time instead of lemon, or both)

orange

Evening Report

Today went much better! I was able to manage the hunger better today. I even went through the drive thru tonight and didn't fold :0) Progress. I was drinking my vanilla chai tea. I really enjoy that tea! The flavor curbs my appetite. My intuition says cinnamon... Not sure though.

The half an apple and larger portions for lunch made the difference. I am considering increasing my dose. I know it can have adverse reactions if the dose is too high but I do have veeeeerry long days and nights and horrible sleep habits. I saw in a post at hcgdietinfo.com where this persons doctor increased his dosage because of his long work hours and weird sleeping schedule. I'll let you know what I decide.

P2 R1 D5 - VLCD3

Morning Report

I'm not detoured by my slip up; correct and continue. I did try to take some corrective measures last night. I also had loads of water and woke up having to use the bathroom something awful.

This morning I'm down to 195.4 (-1.4), honestly it's hard to believe that is my current weight. Even though I know I could have loss more if I would have not slipped up last night and overindulged the night before, to see my weight decrease daily is something out of a sci-fi episode.

I look forward to having more success with my self control.

Later in the AM:

I started plugging my calories into Fitday.com this morning for yesterday and realized I probably needed to eat more calories for lunch to keep me from being so hungry.

I have pre-planned today's menu; utilizing an Anderson Method technique and also to help keep me from undereating too much in the first part of the day.

What I'm planning to eat:

Tea

Strawberries

egg/egg white scramble with 1 onion

apple

spinach

fish, barramundi

coffee green tea w/vanilla creme stevia and lemon

Evening Report

I am determined to make it through today without making a concession to the monster inside of me that keeps fighting me on this...

I have half a liter to go in my water adventure and I've had dinner but I'm still hungry!! Maybe it is head hunger, if it is, why does head hunger feel like belly hunger.

I'm headed to have some vanilla chai tea with 1 teaspoon of coconut milk (that's what we drink) green tea (no vanilla chai in the house, what was I thinking) and stevia. I think that should help the hunger monster till my next dose.

If that fails I am going to have another apple which will put me about 55 calories above the 500 mark but at least it won't be chicken pieces and fries.

Late PM:

Did some dry brushing and had my first epsom/sea salt bath to take my mind off things. My last dose of hhcg combo helped with the hunger, which was positive. Going to finish my tea and chill out. Didn't eat the apple :0)

P2 R1 D4 - VLCD2

Morning Report I think I had quite a few calories to drink last night in the form of wine so I'm not surprised to not see a bigger loss. I'm grateful to see the loss I did have. I am hungry this morning but I also haven't had my dose yet. I'm hoping the sensations of hunger will subside all together in another day or so. I'm sure my body just needs to adjust. Last night the Anderson book talked about planning your meals ahead of time and only eating at "meals" instead of snacking all day. Sounds like good habits, I'll see what I can do to add that to my journey. P.S. After my first dose I'm feeling a little less hungry. :0)

Evening Report

What I had to eat:

tea with stevia

apple

chicken salad (chicken breast on lettuce)

salad dressing I created: lemon juice, salt, pepper, and 3 drops of lemon drop stevia

apple

3 chicken pieces

small fry w/ranch

coffee toffee frosty

The salad dressing was good. I think I'll save that recipe. A tiny bit on the sweet side but not too much to be a turn off

My hunger took me off the path today, I am sorry to report. My will was good all the way till we were heading home and passed this fast food place.

So what had happened was... We were on a school outing on a boat in the bay area. I brought my lunch and ate it and towards the end of the trip I was starving. I had an apple on the drive home and probably would have made it if it wasn't for the fact I had to turn around and go get my son's glasses from across town.

By the time we were headed back from getting the glasses I was done; tired and hungry! My son was like, "Wendy's" and I was like, "Okay." The pictures in the drive thru were too much for a sistah to handle. Sad but true.

I'm not sure why the hhcg is not curbing my appetite but it's not. Tomorrow I will be back on top of it and see what I can do to work it out so I am more successful.

Up until the incident I was doing good. I maybe should have went home first, ate, then went to get the glasses. I don't know. I was going to grab some coffee too before the drive thru incident but I was like just get home and it'll be cool... Not.

The sad part is, after I had lunch today I was hungry. Dangit! And it wasn't just mental hunger.

I'm going to have a talk with myself while I'm sleeping and we'll be back on the right path. Pray for me y'all.

P2 R1 D3 - VLCD1

Morning Report

The scale is down .2 since yesterday. Nothing really to report except I'm glad the filling up part is over. My stomach is so gassy and I don't need to tell you what that means. I think it was the ice cream.

Evening Report

What I had to eat:

tea with juice of 1/2 lemon

beef (100g)

asparagus

strawberries

shrimp (80g)

spinach

wine

Calories recorded in fitday.

Today is my first very low calorie day/diet (VLCD) and it was a challenge. I was hungry this morning and did my best to stretch out the food I took to work. I had some nasty coffee in the late afternoon to try and fight off the hunger.

I just had dinner and I am pretty much still hungry. Oh well. It's bearable. I think the wine will do the trick ;0) I still have 1 litter of water to drink but I might forgo some of it so I'm not up going to the bathroom all night. Maybe I'll have half after the wine to flush everything through hehehe

I bought some stevia this evening and plan to try it out in my tea tomorrow. I look forward to what the scale brings tomorrow. I have to be honest, I'm a little concerned how the wine might affect the numbers but not concerned enough not to drink it.. it's been a looooong week and Dr. Simeon said it was okay.

P2 R1 D2 - Loading

The scale was up a few pounds today, 199.4. Guess I did a good job loading.

It was interesting to experience trying to do something on purpose and realizing I used to do this unconciously before now. Let me explain, after dinner I went on CalorieKing.com and looked up how many calories and fat I took in because I wanted to make sure I was loading enough fat grams. When I looked up the meal there were 1440 calories in it, that doesn't include the calories from all the other stuff I ate with the meal like bread with butter, soup, and wine! OMFGoodnes!!!! But what was worse is the thought that I've done that before now and not looked up the info or had a second thought about how many calories I just shoved in my mouth.

To top off last nights experience, the chapter I am reading in The Anderson Method talked about eating consciously and not puting anything in your mouth without knowing how many calories are in it. The chapter had more to say and I'm leaving out a really good story he shared before mentioning calories but ultimately the point I got yesterday was how much unconscious eating I've done... that was a big WOW for me.

I think I will practice the art of calorie counting (conscious eating) while I'm taking this journey and make it a part of what I do from now on. It was a good lesson to read in Anderson's book and to experience.